Hurting

As soon as I started to heal and pick up to move on with my life MOM'S birthday come up and slapped me in the face and now all I feel is pain. My best friend is gone and she was the only one that EVER LOVED ME. All I've heard is be strong for dad but who's going to be strong for me. I need my family more then ever and I've never felt so alone. Why can't I be ok? My world is crashing down on me and I can't turn to anybody. God please help me tho all these trials I can't do this anymore. I am hurting so much and am scared to show my feelings. 

BATTLEFIELD

As  l listen to the song "BATTLEFIELD" talking why does love always have to feel like a battlefield. But really isn't it the people in the relationship who really making it hard. Whatever the problem is cheating, spending too much money or not giving space you can either work it out or dwell. I learn from my parents who r working on 34 yrs and the only problem they have is they are both talking but not listening to each other. See I have always to been the one that had to be strong and keep them from yelling at each other but unless they go to GOD with their problems I cant help. As their baby girl (ask my brother's) I've been here tho it all. And there are just somethings you can't  and even when it hurts all you can do is pray that GOD will bring them back to each other. But being a Card I can say is that I have a great relationship to look at that give me FAITH that when I'm ready GOD will bring it to me. I am looking for LOVE and sometimes forget that very important I'm LOVED BY THE GREATEST MAN GOD