You knw my last blog was taken to a point where it really hurt me that two ppl u knw who u r but anyways you took away from what I was even saying I wasnt talking about the president or what anyone thing the man did y his was in office I dont care... What I was talking about was that if we dont stand up and get more into where OUR FREEDOM comes from and we dont get more involved then it was all for nothing AND I DONT BELIEVE IT WAS ALL FOR NOTHING!!!!!

FREEDOM

As the 4th of July comes up I am reminded of our FREEDOM and who has fought and died for that FREEDOM! I'm a very proud Navy brat but some members of my family went into the Marine's. No matter what unit they were with they all fought for OUR FREEDOM! But we take that for granted. It's all mind-blowing that my generation doesn't understand that if we don't STAND UP and take back what our family and friends have fought for we won't just be in debt we will no longer have rights. It's time for us to put our GROWN UP PANT on and show them they will NEVER take OUR FREEDOM AWAY IT'S ALREADY COME AT TO HIGH OF A PRICE. How much more our we willing to give up or pay......

I was just talking to my father and he told he realized that ive never really had me time. Ive gone out dont get me wrong but it was never fear. When I was at work or out with friends I always got a call from 911 telling mom fell or whatever. I know its hard to understand if you never had to do it but taking care of a parent even before your grown is really hard on you. As children u never imagine your parents getting old and for me its been my whole life. I dont regent it or am I angry anymore no. It is what it is. But what I get to take from being with my parents is family history and memories that will last forever. I didnt really get to know my father's dad and when I asked about him I hear wonderful things but I dont remember him. So I am very honor to have the moments I get with my parents....FAMILY we sometimes forget that they are very important. No matter what differences we have we also share the same blood, name and at the end of the day your family are always there for you. Well I cant really say blood because I have people that I have been friends with that we look out for each other, we listens to whats going on in their life and we want to see them happy. So on an end to my rant just remember that we are all blessed if we just open our eyes and hearts you will see it. God Bless Everyone.

Sad

Today I'm sad and my heart hurts. I let this man I've known for 12 yrs and let me not lie I begin a relationship with a man who was separated from his wife. Not once but twice. But when she left him again I was YAY I get my friend back and hang with his kids. Then one day hes gone again. It's has not a damn thing to do with him it was his children. Every time I get in a relationship it moves to fast and I lose myself into him and we both end up hurt. So I'm finding out who is Tiffany Card? Is she smart? Does she have the strength to make something out of her life? If you have to ask yourself these question then it time to take a space for yourself. Make sure you know who you are and what you want but most important to make sure you love and care about yourself but if you don't you will never be completely be happy. I am getting there its a struggle everyday to get get up sometimes others I'm great. So my best advise is to get a third party who has no stake in your life and talk to them.

Life

You know I remember being 17 and thinking God 30 is so old. Now that i'm there I think about how my past  made me the woman I am today. Not many people know but I was molested at a young age. And then raped at 13 which took my ability to have children. I don't give up hope on that if its meant to happen it will. But the whole time I was also taken care of my mother. I don't regeret letting my brothers go out and have families because taking care of my mother has given me a chance to go to school and be a C.N.A. But then my father's health has gotten worse and it's hard to go find/get a job when dad can't really take care of mom or himself. So things have been pretty tight and it does drive me crazy not having me time. So days thats all i want is to go out and not have to worry and been scare something will happen...

As I sit here i'm just baffled by how people treat me like its ok to hurt me and when i forget because that how I am I just forgive.....Actually God forgives me so I forgive....But when you give forgiveness does that mean to cut them out of your life, try to help even though your heart breaks, or do you let God take over and move on. That's my problem I can't move on I dont like cutting people out of my life I just want what everyone does HAPPINESS....and then my heart breaks because I am scared thats not going to happen to me. Both of my parents are in bad health and I stayed between because why should we all not have a life. The other shoe dropped I need help and I need it badly....Those words I thought I would never say HELP because I am drowning and I am scared.

Obession

Your obession of me being everything you believe I should be.
It makes you blind to see who I'm truely meant to be,
The person who stands in front of you here today is the
beginning process of the great woman I will become.
But you will never be there to see it because you don't
want the chance to know who I am.
Our lives will always be in two different directions.
I know I don't live up to standards and that disappoints you.
But you shouldn't try to make dreams for me.
You just won't be happy with my life and the way I live it.
But I am competely happy and to me that's the best feeling
in the world.
Because I know unconditiaonal love from people who do 
care enough to support me with whatever I do.

HEALING

As I look back at the events that have happened lately. I think what have I done. How could I be so stupid to get in a car and drive drunk? I know that God has forgiven me but the hardest part is that I dont feel worthy of His forgiveness. I know as humans we make mistakes and most of us learned from those mistakes. I learned that even though I didnt hurt anyone I hurt myself more. I disappointed my parents once again. That's the most painful of it all is that I hurt my family. My whole life no matter what I have done my parents they have stood by me. I'm trying to get my life back together but when I start doing good I let that DEVIL on my shoulder tell me I will never stop screwing up. So where do I go from here? A friend told me you can only go up and she's right. But I'm struggling to do that I need help but from where or who? I need to lose my self-pity and pick myself up and let God help me back on track.